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Burn-out or Waking Up!
Submitted by Pam on Tue, 05/01/2012 - 01:19
This beautiful Iceland Poppy greeted me yesterday as I strolled through the garden - morning coffee in hand and wrapped in a blanket to keep the rain drops at bay.
The explosion of pollen heavy stamens and half formed petals looks exactly like my mind has been feeling lately.
And I can't really explain to you exactly what that means. What I do know is that ever since I returned from my visit with my sister where I was completely shut off from the internet and phone and TV, I have been wanting to retreat into media/internet free space most of the time!
Instead of feeling like I had been "missing out" when I returned home, I actually felt more like I didn't want to return - at least not now!
My first thought - panic - Pamela you have hit burnout! Three and a half years of non-stop blogging and you have burnt out your brain!
Looking over the posts already planned for the next couple months - no passion! All I really want to do is work on a growing pile of personal projects WIP's and wannabe WIP's - projects that have been shunted aside in favor of projects for the blog - for over three years.
OMG - have I lost my passion for blogging? Is it all over?
Then three things happened.
First - I became aware that I am not alone - apparently many people I know in internet space are going through similar "stuff". You very well may be one of them.
Hummmmm..... perhaps the planets are in a bad mood - OR they may be in a fortuitous alignment pushing us into introspection and asking us to question where we are at the moment and where we want to go. So many of us seem to be in this mode.
Second, my friend Teri sent me a lovely book - "Pencil Dancing: new ways to free your creative spirit" by Mari Messer. How in the world she knew I needed this book - especially now - I will never know. It is serving as a gentle reminder that nothing is lost or gone - the mind has not emptied or become barren. It simply needs rest.
And last, and most important, I realized that this lack of passion has an expiration date!
My mind, muse, creative center are all tingling with excitement with the ideas and plans I have already got in store for the Harvest Season and Christmas! I am very excited and enthused to get started on every one of them!
In fact - right in the midst of all this "down time" inspiration popped in to visit and I now know most of the countries I will be featuring in December.
So I am thinking what all this really means is this: beyond needing a rest, I am mostly passionate about Christmas!!! And I need to pay attention.
Not long ago, after taking Diane's most excellent Craft Blog Tune-up Class, I wrote this in my journal in an attempt to describe what I want my blog to be: "like sitting in a comfy chair, next to a crackling fire, drinking cinnamon laced coffee, nibbling biscotti, letting the mind drift into that place between dreaming and awake where the muses of creativity and inspiration dance."
Sounds like Christmas to me!!!
So........this is the deal! I am going to do something I often offer as good advice to my friends - some of you will no doubt smile - you know who you are!! I am taking some unstructured time!
I have erased every post planned for May and June! Gasp! (Except for "Supporting Free" of course!)
And I am going to muddle through the next couple months with no blog post plans whatsoever - totally unstructured! I have no clue what that is going to look like but then I suppose that is the point!!
It will be fun to see what develops. I hope it will be fun for you too!